I couldn't stop reading. Your story was not only fascinating but you were definitely well loved because it is absent of any type of anger towards your mom. Life and love are complicated. I've wanted to do an Ancestery test but haven't because I'm not sure if I want to know what I will find. I am definitely my parent's daughter but my dad left when I was five and though he did come back several times, I've always wondered if I have more siblings out there.