This is beautiful and so moving. I could feel your passion and your pain. Your students were blessed to have you. My sister is a teacher so despite not being one I could appreciate your love, devotion, dedication, and calling in every single word. You have found the beauty in your struggle. It's all we can ever hope for. I'm so sorry for what you have experienced. They thought my cousin had MS but after years of believing that they discovered it was something else. I think it's called sarciodosis what he has and he's doing well now and someone else had Lyme not MS. Is there any chance you could have something else? Since these two instances led to improved health. My cousin was actually seen by many doctors before they realized it wasn't the proper diagnosis. I'm sending you love and healing thoughts.